Join Date: Apr 2017
Location: The Netherlands
I live off grid half of the year. No tv, no books, no phone, no internet, no radio, no people, no nothing. Just me and the outdoors. Only in sort of emergency situations I can go online/make a call. I've been looking forward to being in this situation for years. I't very tough at times. I've come to realize that what stands between me and being on a downward spiral is often information of some sort. It was a shock when I realized this. Being able to discover something new seems to be an antidote for the feeling of being stuck. It works, but in the end it doesn't help me to change my life. In fact, time is passing by and I am still stuck. Life is about people, weather I like it or not. It was on the top of my agenda when I was out there in the woods having one of the worst crises of my life. I've been back in society just a couple of weeks now and I'm having an awful hard time to not spend my time in front of this screen. It steels my time, hinders progress and I'm letting it. I'm definitely addicted. I lull myself into sleep with the idea I'm connecting to people here. It's a half truth.