@SorryForMyEnglish
Wow I like what you have to say about the ''libidal ego'' and the ''persona.'' That is very interesting and I can understand more now about the movie and about myself, thank you. I would also think the same about other people, I would wonder if I could be more libidal than persona and if others are that way with me. And I think I can see it in therapists too when they become persona or when they just use their libidal ego on their patients/clients.

Yeah, same with therapists

I noticed how when I started to open up to mine, it's only our two libidal egos (minus her contertransfering stuff and maybe something else) are talking to each other. That's because of her therapuetic technique.
I started to notice my anti-libidal tendencies more now. It shuts down my emotional/libidal ego completely. But whenever I have more connection to it, I identify with it and I feel pretty much like a different person for the most part. My emotions feel much more genuine as opposed to how I feel when I'm not connected to it. But that's only thanks to my therapist and the approach/technique she uses, what she sees in me that I can't see, what she encourages in me, mirroring of my emotions etc. Society, caregiver, relatives etc encouraged other things and made me the way I am before/without therapy. That's also why this forum is not so helpful... Because there's lots of people like that (like me too), plenty of self-hating ones who apply their philosophy to others (but that's because they think actually things are this way, and I'm not talking about pessimism and depression btw, it's more like repressiveness what I'm talking about).

Harry Guntrip said anti-libidal ego and false ego are not exactly the same things though. Anti-libidal ego ego is strictly anti-libidal while false one is more like a personality each one of us has with good and bad traits for survival. He says there's no point to render it completely useless because unfortunately we can't start from scratch and rewrite our whole personalities oh hiw I wish we could though) because it's impossible to recreate the process of developing in childhood, that environment in therapy fully