Hmm, that sounds pretty sexy, so you're a sexy scientist right?
Thanks for calling me sexy
It was over 15 years ago, remember. But maybe I should make myself sexy by trying to remember my mindset back then and forgetting whatever happened that changed it lol. You also sound sexy by the way
Yeah, they liked me once I wanted a relationship, but only so they could get in my pants. I know all of their desires by now, they say okay to my wants just to get in my pants.
A for me I want relationship for emotional reason. In fact as Christian I don't believe in sex before marriage. But even if I did, I jut don't ee a point a to why guy put o much energy into wanting just sex and nothing else it like do they not have anything better in life to worry about? And the sort thing of all i I have to pay for it since girl assume I also jut want e hen I actually want something a lot more genuine.
There was this one guy who backfired at me and avoided me in 2015, I scared him away, I couldn't help myself though. There I was all high on prozac and feeling great for once in my life in a math class and his intelligence with solving a math problem before my eyes made me vocalize to him right there in person my amazement of how smart he is. Then he looked like he was getting uncomfy.... But ahh those big brown eyes. Then after class I wanted to ask him out and had to chase him, then he got in his mom's car and then when I got home I messaged him on the mathlab and he told me the truth that he was scared of me. Then we never talked again.
wow he was really lucky. In my case all I have to do is fail to smile and a woman wrongly think I ant to be left alone and grant me that supposed wish when as a matter of fact I don't want to be left alone, it a just a huge miscommunication. But he ha opposite situation to me: he actually tried to be left alone but you chased him anyway. well, lucky him! I guess if I ere to run acro someone like you then my situation would be so much better.
But then again, back in Russia I remember one girl that was scaring me as she was actually beating me up and stuff. Could it be that Russian girl are more aggresive than American ones, and my hole plight of being ostracized is due to the fact that I live in America?
No, I think I always had social anxiety, it started when I was about 11. So yes, in my early high school years I wanted to become an astronaut, I kept thinking about saving the world and that really helped uplift my mood since I was being bullied all the ****ing time. I also wanted to be so many other things, and they mostly focused on helping other people. So, my choices haven't changed that much, yeah psychology and doctor is something pretty cool, I keep thinking to myself that if so many people can be psychologists, why can't I? I have as much information to share with other people as they do, and if they can be so can I. Yeah, mostly because I have social anxiety and other stuff that can help relate to other people in this world. So if you feel the same, then just follow your dreams and do what makes you happy. Seems like psychologists always help people, because it makes them happy, doctors are the same, yep seems like everything brings the same happiness as long as you're helping people.
In my case I always wanted to be a physicist. But saving the world is right up my alley. I want to "change" the world o that the world see physics in entirely different light
so are you saying you want to be a therapist? hat type of counseling do you ant to specialise in?