Join Date: May 2011
Location: Somewhere in Europe
Relapsing after years
So I haven't posted here since 2011, and even spent hours trying to remember my log in info. I'm not sure what I hope to gain from this other than to vent. But the other night I had a panic attack, first one in years. Before it I couldn't even remember the last time I had a panic attack. I don't know what triggered it as I'm in a good place right now. I quit my horrible job a year ago to go back to school, and I'm doing really well. I love theclasses I'm taking, I have a circle of friends and a stable study group, like I said, I'm doing well. Lately though I've been having this unrational fear of relapsing. My social anxiety isn't completely cured, but it's not causing me much problems. It almost feels like I'm anxious about becomming anxious and I don't know why. Scool used to be a trigger for me 10 years ago, but last year I've been fine. I guess I'm scared of falling into old habits like spending an hour just leave the house cause I have to check everything, or reading and rereading, redoing my notes. I think I know myself enough to see it if I should relapse but I'm not even sure about that. Whenever I get some time to myself I just think about it over and over again my brain screaming I'm gonna relapse, I'm gonna relapse, over and over again.
Anyways, If anyones got any good tools ot tricks to deal with anxiety I'll gladly take them. It's been a while since I needed them.
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