telefy, i may just try that. i think you're correct about the season bringing the memories about: october used to be my favorite month and i have always loved fall.
the "intrusive thoughts" you so aptly named do come in waves, and they are not continuous. i was in and out of conciousness that day so the memories are the ones i have. i morbidly asked the boy who was with me when it happened if i looked and saw the car coming or if i was totally oblivious of it, but he has never been able to talk about it. apparently i'm not the only one who suffered trauma that day.
other times (not associated with the time of year) i do have the intrusive thoughts about the incident but it stems mostly from frustration about having a 38 year old body that feels and acts like a 75 year old body.
another question, would your average antidepressant help treat these flashbacks. i've never found one that took care of everything (anxiety, panic, social phobia, and these intrusive thoughts). i'm asking a lot, i know. but so many people tell me to "get over it", especially after 24 years, but since my body reminds me of it every single day, i doubt that i ever will "get over it".
i saw a thread in another forum here about holding grudges against others, i tend to hold grudges against myself and my experiences. weird.
thanks for the reply.
social phobia, panic disorder w/agoraphobia, gad, depressive disorder nos
current meds: buspirone 10mg 2x/day,welbutrin sr 150mg 2/day, paroxetine 40mg, clonazepam .5mg 4x/day
I'm hell flavored.I've got mood poisoning, it must be something that I hate. marilyn manson