Other people "listening" to my thoughts seemed to express that it is me somehow "broadcasting" my thoughts (as my cousin says) another girl implied that "I had the window open" and everybody could see in. Yes, it feels like a perversion in the spiritual sense, and it makes me consider that perhaps Adam was afraid and trying to hide because his "private inner place" was exposed and perhaps he knew that he was not yet his fully formed self and yet prematurely knew what he was "supposed" to become, yet was not and there for knowing he was lacking or inadequate for his making and ashamed to face "God".
Yes, I have had someone else imply that they could even see what I was seeing. I noticed that in these moments, the people seem very bothered by me and some have ran away abruptly. I suspect that what is happening is sort of like an overwhelming light that can be consuming to who they are, to the point of perhaps feeling that they are losing themselve's to something much stronger.
It also seems that they will attempt to influence my attention and keep me preoccupied and waste my time as to what seems like (now looking back and considering) that they were "rummaging" through my thoughts, and perhaps try to take up space and mark or vandalize in my own mind in a way. As though I were leaving them with something good, and all they were leaving in return was something vulgar and shameful.
It seems that it is VERY important to see and know yourself with the utmost respect and keep your highest character in mind and foremost in focus. To focus on your honored and admirable point of view closest to heart and not be afraid or insecure.
I have also conisdered that perhaps we are something they will not or yet to be. There seems to be jealousy and envy. Or perhaps they are helping us to learn the importance of self controling our domain.
I noticed that I have the ability to some how just know things about the people around me and almost conciously "probe" into who they are. I just accepted it as a gift that had a purpose for something to come, but I did not consider that it may have a side effect of others receiving my connection into them.
The part that disappoints me is the deception and shallowness and vulgarness of character that many seem to display. The sneaky smerks and giggles and comments they make to each other. But not always. I have often witnessed people cry and share how much they care and wish they could help me, and yet still (with tears in their eyes) they will not directly say what they are expressing.
It gets to the point where I feel like it may ALL be cohersive, and just the very thought of carrying on a dialogue almost seems like it could be leading into perplexity and confounding. To believe in perversion and less in yourself.
I have a lot I would like to discuss. It seems to me that a lot of other people experiencing the "mobbing" or "gangstalking" on youtube may actually be suffering from this sort of phenomenon: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hQLqDVoeNpc