Originally Posted by cellophanegirl
However, most of the time I feel like I'm in this kind of limbo space. I just spend all of my free time online, getting more and more bored and restless. I don't really love my job, and it's not related to anything I might be striving for in the future.
I feel like I'm just floating through life like a ghost. I don't want to die, but I don't feel happy or exited about the life I have right now either.
Yes. I really don't see any purpose in living, although I don't think I'll ever commit suicide.
I think having no broader purpose to one's life is probably the primary cause of depression these days, and there's a correlation between hedonism and clinical depression.
So many things I'd like to do, so many tasks I'd like to complete, but I never have the self-discipline to get around to doing them, which absolutely destroys all self-esteem.
These two quotes describe how I used to feel very well.
No purpose. Didn't have any drive, nor enthusiasm. No discipline to do anything.
Thankfully, I'm a completely different person today.
I'm motivated, and pursuing goals that are dear to my heart.
If I had two pieces of advice, that have had a HUGE impact on me, it'd be the following:
1. Ditch easy instant gratification. Staring at a screen several hours a day while munching on Doritos turns you into a zombie. It literally eats up all your natural drive
, and causes you to self-loathe. Since I've cut out all that hyper-stimulating stuff, I've found myself with a lot more energy, discipline, and a renewed enthusiasm in life in general.
talked about how hedonism and depression are linked. That's exactly true. Constant consumption of entertainment will make you addicted and miserable.
2. Build the life that you want. Live according to your values. Literally sit down with a pen and paper. And think long and hard about how you want to design your life. Don't think that you're condemned to being a little drone who works for a bit entity, if that's bothering you.
It's called low-grade depression, I believe. But I know what you mean.
It's also called dysthymia. Low grade depression that goes on for very long, often longer than a major depressive episode.