I can totally relate to this. I have used drinking as a "medication" for anxiety issues. I developed a "drinking problem" as well. It's difficult for me to say what is the right answer regarding drinking. I quit a while back, as well. When feeling desparate, I often desire alcohol. You have to determine what risks are involved if you drink; and whether you are likely to lose control of your drinking and your life due to this dangerous self medication. I think the "best" answer for anyone is to not drink or use drugs; but I'm still willing to risk drinking in the future. It's like with many things, how much does it help, how much does it harm. but the smart answer for you and me both is NO. There are other options that include working on self (cognitive behavioral therapy, etc).