I'm pretty sure I've had this. Just two week ago or so, I remember feeling high. I just felt full of energy, and I stayed up for three days straight, and then suddenly I had this described feeling. I remember I was talking to my friend, and then he looked down on the floor, and it kind of felt like my mind snapped. All of a sudden it felt like nothing mattered, and that nothing existed. I felt like I didn't exist. It was a bit of a disturbing feeling. I told everybody there that I had to leave.
As I walked home, I just remember thinking that, we're all animals pretty much, in the sense that we're living organisms. Aside from physical differences and inelligence, I felt I was no different from the pidgeon on the sidewalk. it seemed like I was experiancg the world for the first time. Nothing really made sense anymore, I just found everything to be rediculous. Probably the worst feeling was the feeling that I had complete freedom. I could seriously hurt myself, and no one would really be able to stop me. Thankfully, I made it home without doing anything like that
I went home, tried to watch tv, but I saw some disturbing images on the tv that I know weren't there. AT that point I just went to my room, grabbed my teddy and hugged him in the fetal position until I got to sleep.
One word to describe the experiance would be disturbing. My emotions seemed confsed, I couldn't tell you if I was sad, scared, or angry, because I just don't know. It was like a mix of all the negative emotions of the human spectrum.
I was supposed to see my therapist and psychiatrist last week about it, but couldn't because of the flu. Now I won't be able to see them till friday. It's happened a few times since, but not nearly as badly. Any ideas? Because alot of what happened to me sounds like this, but some things I experianced, haven't been described by others.