Ive had depression my whole life, as a child I had thoughts of suicide, started cutting at 15 and had a mental breakdown between my early and mid twenties, im in my 30's now and it just doesnt get easier. The last couple of weeks have been up and down but the last two weeks ive been finding it really hard to cope. It started with intense anger and regret over past experiences, ruminating thoughts that I couldnt stop, I havnt been able to eat, ive lost half a stone in weight, im exhausted all the time, I cant manage to get myself out of the house, can barely get out of bed, ive been having nightmares, my anxiety is really high, ive been moody and fighting with family.
I just cant seem to get myself out of this slump no matter what I do or how hard I try. I feel horrible and alone and I cant stop crying
How do I stop feeling like this? .