re: daydreaming too much
I daydream about my ideal self as well.
I'm currently in a Personality class for psychology, and according to one of the psychoanlaysts we're studying (Harry Stack Sullivan is his name), we have self-images ourselves that fall into three basic categories: The good-me, the bad-me, and the not-me. The good-me personficiation consists of those aspects about ourselves that we feel good about, that have been rewarded in the past. Like speaking up in class or making a new friend. Typically, these behaviors are associated with feelings of security or, put another way, feelings without anxiety. The bad-me reflects those parts of our experiences that we would rather not think about, that have not been rewarded. This would describe the times we've winced in shame and embarassment when thinking about regrettable things we've done. These, of course, are behaviors associated with anxiety. I won't get into the not-me because it's bascially the same as dissociation and repression, but the thought that interests me that we - our personality - is divided by one underlying factor: Anxiety.
We're all Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hydes.
I'm not who I have in memory
Nor who is in me now.
If I think, I self-dismember.
If I believe, there is no end.