Can't seem to connect to music
I have no idea if it's just me, but i can go for weeks without listening to any music, but everyone else in the world seems to love music, and concerts and clubs, or just places with live music are really popular places to hang out when many times, particularly to clubs and some concerts, depending on who is playing, just feel too loud.
I recall going to a big concert years ago and being more interested in the pyrotechnics while everyone else was dancing and singing and i just felt awkward there, didn't even feel like talking to anyone because i felt like an alien in a way, i just went there to do something different but i didn't feel like dancing or rocking out at all, i felt more amusement just watching the people around me.
I know it's awful to say this, but i can't understand what makes a song good or bad, the difference that notes make, i do understand and somewhat feel like slower beats make for more chill or sad songs and faster beats for more energetic and happier songs, and i guess i do feel something, because they still give me a bit more energy, but then i hear people saying one song is better or they can tell which guitarists are better and i'm like "Hmm, they just play guitars i guess" a lot of the time and, again, aside from my mind associating tempo with songs for energy or what not, i really don't get music.
I just can't connect to it or understand it in anyway, more likely than not, if i go out and put headphones in, i will be listening to an audiobook or a podcast, i think the last time i tried just listening to songs in an attempt to feel more normal was more than 6 years ago.
Why the hell can't i connect to music or really enjoy it like everyone else, i want to feel like moving my feet, rocking out or being able to talk to people about music, but i just can't care, what is wrong with me!?
Just here to talk about stuff i guess.