I am diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome. This, of course, is a disorder based on eccentricilty and a lack of typical status quo behavior.
I often tend to feel safe when I am alone and by myself...........but many times I also get very lonely. It is VERY hard to balance these two needs. I do feel like I live in my own little world at times, but my eccentricities seem to make people distant from me. It is hard to be drawn to the very things that I am distant from.............which doesn't make much sense I know.
Sometimes I feel like I am the only person I can truly trust. This is not good for my social life. In infancy this modality was probably adaptive, but now it seems to create some problems with my ability to relate to people.
Life is very hard. I am on anxiety meds, and they help a bit., as does music and my improv group and grad school. It is not all bad, but I am on edge a lot and ever anxious. Sigh. Sometimes what is going on in your head is different and worse than how seemingly good life appears from the outside.
Is there meds specifically taylored to Asperger's? I understand it may be related to OCD, so perhaps the SRI's are sometimes used. I don't really know for sure.