I am really worried about my moods. I woke up really really angry and the second half of the day is with depression.
I am concerned with myself with how to put up with it. I'm agigated and can't be bothered. I dont know what to do, I dont want to do anything. I just want to be left alone, but that doesnt happen for me. I have growing kids who depend on me and I'm depressed.
I dont know how to leave things alone once I've dealt with them, they just pile up in my head. I want to scream and run away.
I live with the hope that something has to change in the course of my life, it hasn't yet. just as well I can't see my future. I may give up now if I could.
If you're a born worrier, can that be changed.? I worried about flies, when I was 2. I thought they were spiders.

I hate this dreaded feeling

Worrying constantly is called Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) and it can be treated with meds.

I can go to sleep with a relatively empty mind on occasion and wake up with all of the negative thoughts and worries festering in my head. Sometimes I begin to wake up and think "wow i feel pretty peaceful". That only lasts a few seconds and happens rarely. so the first half of the day I'm usually pretty angry/worried. Then become depressed. Then the smallest thing a person says can quickly trigger me into anger and i feel like i can't control myself or the way i lash out.

I hope it can be changed... =(