1. A feeling that nothing is safe
2. We can never relax
3. Can’t really sleep & wake up early
4. Appalling self-image
5. Drawn to highly unavailable people
6. Sickened by people who want to be cozy with us
7. Prone to loose temper very badly
8. Highly paranoid
9. Other people seem dangerous so we like to be alone
10. Life feels exhausting
11. We’re not spontaneous
12. Attempt to find security through various things like money, fame etc
I don't think 1, probably 2 (but I don't think it's related to this I think it's my lifestyle and some generalised anxiety.)
Not 3 I have really **** quality sleep especially recently so wake up feeling like crap, but I don't have trouble getting to sleep and sleep a normal amount of hours most of the time.
4 but I'm a bit of a psychopath so I don't always care if people think I'm predatory etc but sometimes I do, depends on my state of mind/mood and who they are. (I'm not sure this even counts since people have directly told me this on multiple occasions, both in a general sense and in a sexual sense it's not just a feeling from no where
at least one person actually used the word predator like in the video to describe people with similar sexualities to me haha.) I think I'm more likely to just feel pathetic though when it comes to negative self image. Lacking in skills, kind of useless etc.
5 but I think it's mostly a combination of me being not attractive and coming across as unavailable too. Also I've had some bad experiences with clingy people.
edit: when I'm attracted to fictional characters they are usually fairly asexual or androgynous, not in relationships in the show, kind of stoic on that topic. My second ex wasn't technically asexual but before we got together he posted on Facebook he didn't understand why people liked sex, and isn't very sexually driven. As long as they're not too politically conservative I like when guys are kind of prudish. I'm turned off by sexually aggressive/forward personalities I think. Probably have a lower threshold for what counts as that than most. I won't go into further details here but this is taken to a pathological extreme I believe. And I think this just applies to guys because I seem to like female 'nymphomaniac' characters sometimes. So I guess it depends on how they express their sexuality too and how masculine they seem to me. I figure it's related to some experience in childhood when I was experimenting, but it might just be in born/related to my personality type and that was the first time it showed up.
I wouldn't say I'm sickened by people who want to be cozy with me, not that adjective. So I guess not that one but there's discomfort and it really depends on the specifics and it might also annoy me.
definitely 7 probably 8, 10 a lot of the time, 11. Not sure about 12.
9 is kind of hard I don't think I like being alone because people are dangerous but because I can't really be bothered performing, don't like small talk, some specific people are draining/incompatible with me, also social anxiety. Not sure I'd say I 'like' being alone exactly either. It depends on the alternative.
The meditation thing from the video doesn't apply to me lol, in fact when I was messing around with that years ago my brother was constantly joking that I'm a hippy.. But I usually can't be bothered because I'm easily bored and have ADHD symptoms. I do have a huge physical personal bubble though.