Do you watch Philosophy Tube on youtube by chance?
Not really, I've watched small parts of a couple of his videos that I stumbled on a while back.
I found out about that documentary (well the guy who made it + other documentaries) while looking around on wikipedia a while back (can't remember what.) But I've only ended up watching that one so far, the title drew me in (as did the top YouTube comment on that YT video upload about the lesbian nuns LOL.)
A while back I was looking at this book which seemed interesting:
(but I have pretty terrible attention issues that make watching/reading stuff a pain,) so I found it interesting how he focussed on Freud and Reich in that episode too.
and I'm kind of interested by the way sexuality is expressed politically including repression (especially queer and paraphilic sexuality,) like before Ted Kaczynski really snapped he was considering transitioning mtf to satisfy his sexual frustration:
In the summer after his fourth year, he describes experiencing a period of several weeks where he was sexually excited nearly all the time and was fantasizing himself as a woman and being unable to obtain any sexual relief. He decided to make an effort to have a sex change operation.
When he returned to the University of Michigan he made an appointment to see a psychiatrist to be examined to determine if the sex change would be good for him. He claimed that by putting on an act he could con the psychiatrist into thinking him suitable for a feminine role even though his motive was exclusively erotic.
As he was sitting in the waiting room, he turned completely against the idea of the operation and thus, when he saw the doctor, instead claimed he was depressed about the possibility of being drafted.
He describes the following, "As I walked away from the building afterwards, I felt disgusted about what my uncontrolled sexual cravings had almost led me to do and I felt humiliated, and I violently hated the psychiatrist. Just then there came a major turning point in my life. Like a Phoenix, I burst from the ashes of my despair to a glorious new hope.
I thought I wanted to kill that psychiatrist because the future looked utterly empty to me. I felt I wouldn't care if I died. And so I said to myself why not really kill the psychiatrist and anyone else whom I hate. What is important is not the words that ran through my mind but the way I felt about them. What was entirely new was the fact that I really felt I could kill someone. My very hopelessness has liberated me because I no longer cared about death. I no longer cared about consequences and I said to myself that I really could break out of my rut in life and things that were daring, irresponsible or criminal.
He also at some point said this:
The moral code of our society is so demanding that no one can think, feel and act in a completely moral way... In order to avoid feelings of guilt, they continually have to deceive themselves about their own motives and find moral explanations for feelings and actions that in reality have a non-moral origin.
I think this is a reoccurring pattern in his life in different areas because he was always frustrated with the feeling externally imposed that he should have to hide his shadow from himself like when he saw certain women and hated them or they angered him:
By and by I got bored with this game. One day when I was 13 years old, I was walking down the street and saw a girl. Something about her appearance antagonized me, and, from habit, I began looking for a way to justify hating her, within my logical system. But then I stopped and said to myself "This is getting ridiculous. I'll just chuck all this silly morality business and hate anybody I please." Since then I have never had any interest in or respect for morality, ethics, or anything of the sort.
Of course that isn't true because he clearly felt deep shame and disgust about being autogynephilic and also frustration about having to lie about it in order to get what he wanted.
Other examples are the homosexual men who supported the early Nazi party before the execution of Ernst Röhm, and I think clearly Valerie Solanas was also influenced by her gender/sexual deviations. There are claims that Hitler was chronophilic, gay or 'sexually confused' but that's much less clear.
It's interesting to me though because you probably need some kind of outlet and if you consider Dali (who among other things ironically fetishised Hitler,) he definitely used his work as one outlet.
Dali had a more than complex relationship with his sexuality, one that has incited a melee of rumours. Dali is said to have been in a homosexual relationship with poet Federico García Lorca, but is also rumoured to have used masturbation as his near sole source of sexual gratification. He had a fear of both castration and female genitalia, encapsulated in one of his most disturbingly intimate works “The Great Masturbator”. Art historian and critic Brian Sewell has also claimed that Dali once asked him to lie naked in front of one of his sculptures and masturbate whilst he watched.
While the vast majority of the Surrealist group professed far-Left political leanings, Dali kept curiously quiet during his early career, before being kicked out of the group for being a Nazi sympathiser, which he denied. Dali went on to make artwork addressing the Hitler, including “The Enigma of Hitler” (above) and “Hitler Masturbating”, once detailing that he “often dreamed of Hitler as a woman” and that the Nazi dictator “turned [him] on”.
Hitler however was not successful artistically.