I was curious if any of you were bullied as young kids in elementary school, junior high or senior high school.
I was teased as a kid since i was old enough to go to school. I hated it. Every day was a day of terror for me. When i wake up every morning, I am thinking this may be the day i will get hurt or possibly get teased and humilated in public. This type of fear developed into SA.
I am a 26 yo guy and i still have flash backs of people tormenting me. sometimes i can't take it. That is why judo is such a big deal for me. I learned a way to channel my energy. At the same time it is a form of self defense.
This year at university, it's been similar. I have had a couple of people taunt me like they were going to hurt me. Another told me i was a crazy person because i was a psychology major.
Some girls that live below me are loud and after we told them to quiet they won't stop. it is like bullying to me.
I get so frustrated. I am always like a pushover. I have trouble standing up for myself.
I have been reliving angry feelings. I am angry because bullies know they can do whta they want and they know i won't do anything about it. I look like the ultimate nerd. If i looked like Mike Tyson, they would never even look in my direction.
Sorry if i sound inarticulate, i am just sad.