Suicidely depressed after kicking lyrica (pregabalin)
So I've been on and off of it until enough was enough and under doc's supervision I've "detoxed" from it.
The problem I'm facing right now however is that I've became extremely depressed. I know that with time this will get better, but oh well you know... I live in the present and not in the future, and right now it's ****ing unbearable.
I'm currently on valium, serquel and mirtazapine and still feeling the exact opposite of euphoria - anhedonia, hopelessness, no satisfaction or joy...
My next appointment will be in a few days, but I'm not really sure what to even tell my therapist at this point as on paper it all seems good and all not taking pregabalin anymore and from the doc's perspective I guess he sees this as I need to "tough it out" now. However at this point I dare to say it IS too ****ing hard.
But what are my options though? I have a bit history of not exactly listening to the docs so I can't afford to screw with him this time but I can't afford to feel this way either.
Reabilitation center? This looks like an option but my family does need me and I've caused enough harm to them as it is. Seriously I should be supporting them and building myself at this point rather than dragging them down at this low point of my life.