But no joking I was surprised myself on May 21st, I fixed a deal with 10 people trying to put me down and arguing seriously with me. I was so patient and I explained the entire procedure related to the deal.. now I was like really strict in telling people that would interrupt me to just listen and allow me to talk. And I was shocked to see for the next 1/2 hr - 45 mins - all these people were just listening to me talk not speaking a word. And then there was another new comer in the discussion who suddenly began to argue and stress his point in not buying my idea. I was really patient and tried to explain him my point only to hear him refuse. Now the most unbelievable thing happened... I was so pissed off by how dumb these guys were; I just called the whole thing off.. started walking away. Everyone could plainly see I was just so frustrated with them.. And now it was like everyone of them just gave in to me seeing my reaction and agreed with my point and in no time I got them to sign the papers.
Well, the most amazing thing was - It was just not me. I couldn't have done something like that in my dreams. I've never shown my anger on anyone other than myself and my loved ones.. (you don't need social skills for that). When it comes to a confrontation I'm the kind of guy who always chose flight over fight.. This was like the first ever in my life I chose to fight till I proved myself right. I always knew its only the dominant and aggressive that survive and succeed in this world. I knew I had no place in this world for I was so timid and spineless as one can be. But now Its like I'm just watching some movie and I just get the job done with excellent people skills so effortlessly. Well, the last two days at work were the best days of my life ever. Even outside of work I was talking to people so effortlessly... male and female - like sales/counter boys/girls (trust me even that was so hard for me even on Klonopin). I noticed myself just talking to the guy behind me when I'm in a line.. its like I know when to be informal and talk and when to be formal and stop talking unnecessarily.
So anyway I don't want to check my flirting/courting skills since I'm married already; but I certainly don't want to chicken out even just to have a friendly & long conversation with a girl just because she looks really pretty.. Yeah! but that aspect unfortunately I haven't had a chance to test it yet. I haven't been to a party or a social gathering in the last few days to check that out. However I'm pretty sure Nardil wouldn't let me down anymore. I'll post again once I tested that out too. Yeah! let me point out another unbelievable incident that just happened today.. My mom's friend and her husband were over at my place to see her. Well guess what I'd normally run into my room if anyone should come home.. at best Klonopin would make me kind of easy around people so I don't have to hide at least. But, I would still just sit and force myself to say something; leaving me still socially disabled. Btw these people are of a really outspoken and talkative kind.. Great stuff..Today, I was probably talking more than anybody in the group. And I honestly found myself cracking jokes and could make people laugh.. I knew when to talk and when to let someone talk; it was as if some kind of a new chip had been inserted in my brain and the old one removed. I knew for sure right there it was Nardil.. I needed no more convincing myself whether it works or not.
So I just want to end this post saying that Nardil works...really like magic. Just don't stop it because you didn't see a good effect in a few weeks. I read somewhere that you better be on 75 mg or even 90 mg to see the real deal. Don't waste your time on even 60 mg. let alone 45 or 30 mg. I spoke to my grandfather this afternoon he happens to be a General physician - asked him about severe constipation, stone hard feces, unbearable pain while excreting accompanied by mild bleeding. He told me I could use Dulcolax suppositories real safely. And a better way to manage even hemorrhoids will be to buy me a self enema kit and that its the best and medically recommended way for those with chronic constipation and hemorrhoids and not even laxatives. I still believe my inability to reach orgasm will go away maybe in a month at the max; cuz I already don't have poor libido and erectile dysfunction anymore.
Orthostatic hypotension sucks but you can simply do what I mentioned above.. at least that works for me. Well, maybe I don't know how painful it can be with someone suffering with Insomnia due to Nardil; because I fortunately don't have that yet. But, I just can't afford to quit even if should get it.. I already bought myself Unisom (Doxylamine Succinate) have that in my shelf in case I should need that anytime.
But if hasn't worked for someone I really feel bad for them; but thats not a reason for them to go around discouraging everybody else to not take it. Its just like any other anti-depressant; works for some and does not for some. Please keep in mind it took me 6.5 weeks to feel anything real on 75 mg and not from when I started Nardil at 15 mg. I read it can even take a full 2 months to start feeling the effect - but just like I did, do fix a really long deadline 3-4 months before you drop it. I'm pretty sure you'll be the next one to write a success story. Don't believe in anyone that pulls you down saying Nardil does not work or its not anymore like the old Nardil - maybe true but even the new formulation still works great enough to use it on a regular basis. Nardil can kill you... maybe true but I certainly do not want to mess with my life for the sake of sacrificing pizzas or whatever the food items are I should avoid. If I shouldn't drink beer I'd better not than end up with a life threatening Hypertension in the hospital. I know I'll never again get a prescription from the same doc anymore for Nardil; even if I'm willing to not be a fool again.
The only thing I've violated so far is maybe I have a cup of coffee few time a week. Because I first had a cup accidentally, realized nothing happened. But I still limit it to 1 cup a day thats it... not more.
Please check out this website - Drugs.com
you can just type in Nardil (Phenelzine) and just about any other drug known to man so check how it interacts with Nardil.. just type the drug name and search its a really useful website. Because some drugs can dangerously react with Nardil... they really can kill you if you're careless. But do not be scared.. just trust in yourself and be infinitely cautious about every other drug or food you mix with Nardil.. and thats about it, now you can't die anymore because of Nardil.
Even if you should start taking Nardil; don't confuse Hypomania with real recovery from social anxiety.. Because most people in my opinion that quit are those that experience Hypomania and think they've recovered only find out its gone after a max of 2 weeks. Hang on... thats not Nardil yet.. it was just a side effect which appears and disappears when you're on it. You have to tell yourself not to be fooled by it; and just hang on for a minimum of 6 weeks to a max of 2 - 2.5 months to see the real deal. Don't give up. Lastly, don't mess with dosage (I read that somewhere on the internet) - arrive at 75 mg/day stay on it for at least 6 months; before you plan to step it up to 90 mg, if you should need it all.
I don't overestimate Nardil either; for I heard some say that they develop tolerance after a year; that they end up quitting. On the other hand, some say they've been on Nardil for like 15 years and it still works like how it did in the beginning. I want to find out which one is true for me.. The worst case I know I at least have Klonopin to go back to. However I don't expect that to ever happen. I'll be back tomorrow I'll be happy to answer any questions if my help is needed at all. Good luck to all. Thanks for reading - Ashwin