Thank you for the responses everyone, i appreciate your advice! I found out my clinic does emergency appointments on sat, so I will see if one of the docs on duty tomorrow can prescribe enough k-pin to get me through till the 12th. If not I will likely go to the ER. I cut my dose down to 0.5 mg yesterday and today in order to conserve the last pill and i already feel 'off '. I had to take 20 mg of ambien last night just so I could sleep.
After this I will be making an appointment with a psychiatrist so hopefully I will have a Dr who better understands benzos and SA in general. I am so tired of the fear and stress i have to deal with every time i need to get a refill, because each time i have to call the clinic and get a reauthorization from the doc which can take days and they don't allow me to have any overlap, saying i may only refill after exactly 30 days leaving me absolutely no surplus should i need it.
I do plan on tapering klonopin soon, because i really dislike being so physically dependant on a pharmaceutical! I want to get to the point where i can take it on an as-needed basis only and not daily. I got into trouble because i've also been using it to help with my insomnia, and before i knew it i was taking it everyday and also became more and more tolerant (started w/ 0.5 mg a day). I do have severe SA though, so I would probably have to take it almost daily anyway if i am going out of the house
It's a dilemma...be physically addicted to a drug or crippled with anxiety? Maybe completing CBT will be the answer, I don't know?
Klonopin has been a wonder drug for me and the only thing that ever significantly helped my SA. What did someone post here once about it, something along the lines of "klonopin, wonder drug forged in satan's pill press" lol.