coming off nardil...brain is squirmin like a toad...help
I'm trying to determine what course to take here...
I decided to come off Nardil due to emotional numbness/detachment, pervasive sense of fear, and compulsive/dangerous behavior.
on dropping from 45 to 30 slowly first morning dread and depression came back...It is less now but replaced by fractured thinking and confusion bordering on amnesia, lack of executive function, and increasing anxiety/flat-footedness around clients and in public. OMG and so much Nausea. Compulsive activity and weight has already dropped, sex drive is ramping back up.
My daily cycle for the last two weeks is: wake up sad and/or confused. Take 15 mgs Nardil, 100 mgs of Lamictal, 50 mgs of modafinil. Got me going but almost makes me more confused until I take a small amount of klonopin. Nausea ugh...By brain is spinning with self-obsessed thoughts instead of engaging in my job.
I crash after lunch and then crash further taking another full or half pill of Nardil and 25 lamictal in the late afternoon. Start getting very impatient again. Have to take 2.5 mg ritalin to keep going and then I'm so verbally full of garbage and oversharing. After a bit I feel relatively normal, but a little impulsive like before I dropped down, for the rest of the day. Cycle begins again in the morning.
I feel like I'm stuck at an impasse...afraid to go any lower because I don't want my original symptoms back, and not sure what to take next. I had a thought of going back up and adding tianeptine; lyrica or phenibut; and/or agomelatine for apathy and the weird fear/anxiety...All of them are here on on their way. My pdoc, who is mostly useless on the topic on MAOIs, wouldn't be on board with them obviously.
Also thought about using them to wean off but which one? they each look attractive in their own way, and I'm just going off the effing rails.