Benzodiazepines for someone who used to be addicted to pain meds?
Hi everyone, I'm 20 years old and I've been suffering with depression and anxiety for about 8 years. I was put on prozac as a teenager and it messed me up a lot so I am not willing to try SSRI's again. However during my late high school years I was heavily addicted to pain pills, literally anything I could get my hands on, but mostly norcos and vicodin. I also took a lot of sleeping pills. It kept me sedated and I didn't feel anxious all the time, but after a while I started noticing the negative effects and it was very hard to get myself out of the hole I dug myself in. I stopped that behavior about 3 years ago and the only interest I ever have in taking pain meds now is when I am actually in pain, and I take them responsibly (before I would take 5 or so at a time).
Anyway, I have recently started going to the psychiatric department for my GAD, SA & anxiety attacks that have been preventing me from living my life normally. I am doing great in school and I have a 4.0 for this semester but I have begun having anxiety attacks during class which causes me to leave the lecture and hide in the bathroom until I feel better. I also lost my job because I wasn't able to deal with customers very well as I got too shy and anxious. After seeing my psychiatrist for a while he eventually recommended valium or xanax and thinks it will help me in the long term.
I'm really scared about the thought of being on benzos, although I am a lot more mature than I was in high school and have improved a great deal. My past still lingers in my mind, and I have seen very intelligent people become addicted to xanax and ruin their lives by taking full bars of it at a time. At the same time I have been working hard for the past 3 years to better myself without medication and it hasn't worked at all, so I wonder if I might need that extra push. What are your opinions, and for anyone who have been prescribed benzodiazepines, how have they worked for you? Thank you in advance!