occasionally lesbian NRx
Join Date: Aug 2010
Location: I've come to burn your kingdom down one ****post at a time
Language: Eng (UK,) 下手な日本語
I was mostly invisible I think. To those I wasn't invisible to, or on occasions I wasn't, I'd get comments ranging from lesbian (because social anxiety must = lesbian,) devil worshipper, shy/quiet, drug addict. Was compared to Samara Morgan and Wednesday Addams, inquiries as to whether I was autistic, and one time some guy actively dissuaded their friend from talking to me because I was weird. Also got comments a few times on how little I looked after my hair at the time because it was long and I didn't. One time some guy joked after reading my tarot cards (that was something he was into,) that I was going to destroy everyone.
People definitely picked up on the stuff I have in common with serial killers and other outcasts of society long before I did, which is freaky. I remember as a child when I was obsessed with the cartoon Beetlejuice my aunt thought that was weird because she'd only seen the adult film and found him creepy (I honestly don't remember enough of the cartoon now to say how similar it is.) I was always into weird dark stuff, though it didn't really kick off until my teen years because it was always age appropriate. As a child it was mostly banal stuff I was into like the video game Medievil, Sabrina from Pokemon and the ghost/psychic Pokemon (edit: also thinking about it the other Sabrina huh what is it about that name that makes people pick it for magical characters lol,) cutesy witch stuff, goosebumps books, and Beetlejuice. Baby-goth stuff I guess you could say. Children were never aware though, that's the only memory before older childhood/early puberty I have of people picking up that I was weird in that way, lots of people noticed I was shy though and I attracted the interests of an abusive girl pretty early on.
I'd also get a lot of people thinking I was cute/childish and that sort of thing, and insults about my height and being short, so that explains a lot about adult me and my complexes really. That weird contrast between people thinking you're cute and people thinking you're sinister/creepy.