Made a lot of progress with my social anxiety and mental health, and hit some milestones I never thought I would hit. Got some crappy employment with the local NHS trust with meetings and so forth over zoon which I am now comfortable communicating in, started going for job interviews, so hopefully I land something soon and can start moving forwards on my career. Started putting down boundaries with toxic people, generally speaking just moving forward with my life. Discovered my values, did a lot of work in stoicism, ACT, CFT. Went on a couple of dates, one of which I did by more or less cold approaching a woman in a shop lol. Never thought I would be able to to that. Gained the ability to tolerate a lot of discomfort, suffering and pain (somewhat diminished now)
Lost a lot of weight and am now almost at my target weight. Gained some muscle (though that's likely gone now hah). Improved my appearance significantly. Went on finasteride and so my hair loss has likely stopped. No side effects (yay, bullet dodged).
Continued my friendship with my very best friend and somehow didn't **** it up. Love her to bits. Reached out to a few more people and am trying to build friendships.
Split up with my girlfriend and spent most of the year in a lot of emotional pain. didn't want to do it, but felt I had no choice. Got arrested (worst day of my life), then they eventually dropped the case. Long story, but a ****ing nightmare. That set me back a long way. Still no success with job interviews and struggling to motivate myself with the process and push forward with a career that has a lot of social interaction. Lost progress socially due to lockdown. Can't go to the gym, so a major stress relieving outlet for me gone, and cant secretly look at women in yoga pants in the mirror (lol sorry, its true tho). On the brink of a weird drug problem, but probably going to be okay there.
Reading that back, the bad sounds ****ing insane lol, but yeh.