Why must treatment hurt worse than cruise mode?
Hi, my name is Matthew, and I have AvPD. *Hi Matt*
Anyway, I've tried to get myself outside of numbing myself to everything not inside my head, and generally I feel melancholic. I'll have really bad day sometimes, but the vast majority of the time is pretty low stress: when compared to forcing myself into social situations, where I feel extreme anxiety, I get depressed and a few thoughts of self harm hang around. The literature is pretty clear: letting others take the interpersonal risks will only make you worse, you have to be the one making conscious efforts to take social risks.
Cried at school the other day, and I get home emotionally exhausted, so I play xbox until I'm calm. Anyone else struggling with going out of their comfort zones?