mine manifest at birth. my mom said i never slept even as an infant and was always anxious. i recall having panic attacks in preschool and earlier, not recognizing them for what they were until late into adulthood. the culture i grew up in did not recognize anxiety issues as being true issues. the term then was 'chicken' or 'coward.'
That's horrible mate - must have been very hard. I think it's still largely true tbh - people have no real understanding of anxiety issues at all unless they've experienced it themselves.
I think you're probably right. I guess an absence of anxiety is hard for me to understand. I see people not experiencing it and I wonder what it must feel like.
It's weird - because I do know what it feels like. Often in the past that's been from using medication like benzos etc - and other times strangely enough just "naturally." I don't really understand it. When I've been manic I don't usually feel anxious - you can actually feel overconfident, it's very strange. That causes other problems though obviously.
I hate anxiety - I think it's the worst feeling there is. It makes us crawl back into ourselves and not want to come out.
I was very "anxious" of things as a child, like my bed breaking if both my parents sat on it, sleep problems, etc. I didn't become anxious of people specifically until social norms started becoming a bigger thing in middle school.