Ex SA Suffer-er lol :)
Join Date: Mar 2009
Location: Los Angeles,California
Why am i feeling depressed after feeling positive for like 5 days in a row ??
I amazed myself that my ways of thinking were changing from negative to positive its like i was reprograming my brain andi went to school with the same attitude and i still didint talk that much bit i actually felt normal mentally when i went to school.. i wasnt really that anxious as i used to be.. I was doing great tand everything each time a negative thought came into my head i would easily eliminate it.. i would be aware of my physical symptoms and i was okay with em and i calmed myself down.. i was doing good with my SA til i woke up today feeling like **** for some odd reason..
I woke up opened my phone to read friends messages and i didint feel like even reading them or writing back i wasnt in the mood i had this wierd feeling.. it was like mild depression in the morning before school.. i didint even go cause i dnt liek goin feeling this ****ty cause it usually gets worse if i go idk.. its like all the depression symptoms come back after feeling good.. low self esteem, inferiority, sadness, crying..like when in this mood you view everything so negatively like oh the techniques im using dnt work.. you will never beat SA just stop trying loser..just dumb thoughts.. it was wierd maybe i let negative thoughts creep in my head that made me feel bad without me realizing it im not sure.. has anybody felt like this?? well there was only one thing that was different the weather was really bad there was loud thunder and it was raining hard.. mayebthat triggered thoughts in my head about sad anxious days in the past when it rained or sumthin.. it was ugly and dark outside.. well i slept it off i took a nap and woke up feeling a bit better but its wierd that my modd never seems to stabalize.. it would be good to feel awesome everyday.. i feel like woopin SA those days..
“Your beliefs become your thoughts. Your thoughts become your words. Your words become your actions. Your actions become your habits. Your habits become your values. Your values become your destiny.”