I went on a bike ride yesterday and overexerted myself and that caused a lot of anxiety and just not feeling able to relax no matter what I did. My mom asked me if I wanted to go the store with her (which is one of my triggers for my anxiety) so I did, wanted to push myself out of my comfort zone and because I don't want to be cooped up in the house all of the time and when I was there I felt like I was having an anxiety attack. I was trying to hard to keep it together and I lasted without having to go out to the car. I didn't feel accomplished or proud of myself at all.. when I got home I felt nothing but anxiety and depression.
It sucks when you try to overcome your fears and better yourself but it only ends up making things worse.. it makes me want to give up even though I refuse to.
"The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance.”