Originally Posted by korey
I did the whole cafeteria disappearing act, too. Only in my junior and senior year, though. I would go to the library and sit in a chair until it was time for the next class. During my senior year, I would skip days where I had to give reports or presentations (or merely read orally). Can't stand any of it at all.
In addition to that, I've done some other things that apparently other people on this board have done because of SA, too:
I wear a jacket of some sort 24/7 (even in the 100+ degree weather here in Mississippi). It really is a comfort thing for me. It's also because I have body image issues, so if I don't wear a jacket while around other people, I become extremely paranoid and think everyone is talking about how fat I am
. I hate it when people ask me why I wear a jacket all the time because I never seem to have an answer. Hopefully, people in college won't care enough to ask.
I also skip eating sometimes just so I don't have to interact with others, even just my family. I've gone days without eating just because I'm too afraid to go into the kitchen to get anything. Hearing my family in the living room laughing and playing makes it worse, because I know if I enter, their enjoyment will be over because they'll be forced to acknowledge me and my drain on their happy-fun-time.
I never use public restrooms, either. They're disgusting and are a pervert's fantasy (All a sicko would have to do is look over the stall and see ... you
! or just a quick turn of the neck, if you're one of those brave people who use the urinals).
In class during high school, whenever the teacher would start calling on people to read aloud, I would immediately ask if I could go to the restroom, and I would hide there (never actually using it, of course) for like 20 minutes, hoping the reading session was over. Why do teachers love to call on people to read orally? I cannot stand it. It is the bane of my existance, pretty much. I have no problems with reading comprehension (I made a 30 on the reading part of the ACT! Isn't that sufficient enough?) If my college professors do the whole oral-readathon thing, then I'm going to send them all a letter asking them to never call on me to read aloud because I simply cannot.
I also refuse to ever go out with any of my friends, which has inevitably led to my not having any friends at all. I can't handle social situations. I've explained to them that me being out around people is more of a hassle than a comfort. They all claim that I "just need to get out more." I wish I could curse people with SA for just a week to let them see how it is.
Wellbutrin SR 300mg, Eskalith CR 900mg, Luvox 100mg
Things I have tried:
Lexapro, Zoloft, Celexa, Prozac, Paxil, Effexor XR, Remeron, Wellbutrin SR, Eskalith CR, Topamax, Valium, Xanax, Ativan, Ambien, Restoril, Desyrel, Ritalin, Adderall, Dexedrine, Inderal, Lopressor, Thorazine, Lamictal, Abilify, Depakote, Geodon, Seroquel, doxepin, chloral hydrate