Was anyone else an INCREDIBLY anxious kid?
For a long time when I was younger, I was terrified of nearly everything and I HATED trying new things. For example, I would only watch the same 5 movies over and over (mainly Bambi, Lady and the Tramp, and 101 Dalmatians because for some reason those specific movies were some of the only ones that didn't make me incredibly anxious), and I refused to watch any Nickelodeon or Cartoon Network shows (my mom didn't let me have cable for most of my childhood so it's not like I could watch them anyway lol). Anything fast paced with wacky animation and jokes just really overwhelmed me for whatever reason. I remember catching the Spongebob movie on TV at my great aunt's house once as a little kid and it just making me so incredibly anxious and I had to look away from the screen. Probably a symptom of mild autism or something but I haven't been professionally diagnosed. I also would have anxiety attacks at the thought of going to the movie theater. I was absolutely TERRIFIED of them.
Also going to the doctor or the dentist were my biggest fears (and still are), every time I had a check up as a little kid I remember worrying that I would be diagnosed with something really bad and my mind would constantly race the entire time and I would feel sick from anxiety. I really think I was too young to be thinking about stuff like that.
I was also the shyest kid you could imagine. I was homeschooled, but I went to a lot of special classes for homeschoolers and a homeschool co-op thing at one point and I would literally NEVER say a single word to anyone and I never had conversations with any of the kids. My shyness and social anxiety got worse and worse as I got older and now I honestly can't stand to be around anyone at all.
I eventually grew out of the whole "being scared of every movie and TV show ever" thing (in fact I LOVE weird cartoons now, thanks to my mom sheltering me there's still MANY popular ones I haven't seen but whatever) but my anxiety in general has just got even worse as I got older and I can barely even leave the house now. Can anyone else relate? Was anyone else THIS unbelievably nervous over small things growing up? Because I feel pretty alone in this.
Hope is the only thing stronger than fear