Dude, how do you meditate ? I've tried it tens of times and it's almost impossible for me to go into that state of mind.
I try to go remote quiet peaceful places, to focus on my deep diaphragm breathing, my body sensations, to let go of all the toughts or at least view them as just passing clouds and all other things, to be present in that place and time but I just can't do it. Been trying for over a year now. I know it's effective cause my friend sad it helped him a lot, and I know another person that said it has been cured of social phobia with meditation, she gave me some books that guided her and still nothing, I followed the steps written there and can't get in that state of mind. Books like Tao, by Osho and such.
Meditation has an opposite effect on me, when I try to do it my rumination goes through the roof and after 10 mins or so I have to stop it or else it begins to get painful even physically, like a really tight corset warped against my chest squeezing my internal organs to the point that it feels like I can't breathe. The thoughts seem to get louder instead of just affecting me less.