Yes, I am happy to be alive. I used to think a lot about suicide, but have never really wanted to die. I had always thought there was a lot in life and that things would get better. For so many years I've lived with feelings of sadness, loneliness, anger, frustration, and lots of other emotions and feelings. Got to the point where I wasn't feeling much and was dissociating from my body. Hadn't really been able to do much living because of all the negative thoughts and shame about feeling this way and avoiding people. Now I'm in a much better place and would like to start living more, rather than feeling like I'm just surviving. And even though its hard I'd like to be able to live and share my life with others.