The stress of having friends!
Inspired by that thread "the stress of having no friends" I have the opposite. Friends wanting to meet up for a drink of dinner or anything else. I hate it, if they decided to ignore me for the rest of my life I would be perfectly ok with it. Now as it is it only happens about 5 times a year that they want to socialize because they actually have a busy life (unlike me) but even that is still too much for me. I always look for excuses not to go. I feel very anxious for days before the meeting happens (probably because they accomplished so much and I'm one who compares all the time)
They are really good friends though, I've known them since high school and I'm way past school but I just don't feel like seeing them...ever. In my opinion we've grown too much apart, they have kids and a wife, I still live with my parents jobless. I've got literally nothing to talk about, except for the past which I rather forget because I'm very nostalgic and it brings me down regularly.
Back in the school days I had fun because we were all equal, we were all students but once I graduated the feel good life evaporated , they grew up, got goals and ambition and I left standing on the spot trying to figure out what I like/dislike. I found literally nothing to go for.
For me life has nothing to offer and I keep that for myself because if I opened up about that I think they would try to get me in therapy or something. I don't want therapy, I don't think it can be helped that I think the way I think. I just got born unlucky and I patiently wait till I'm old.
I feel very very uncomfortable in public especially when I'm with someone else, I had hoped by now that they would have given up contacting me but alas. I often fantasize of living on a remote Island all by myself.
Wanted this of my chest because they texted me to meet up so the anxiety is kicking in. I already excused myself though but knowing them they can't take no for an answer...
Who can relate?