I am not a talker. I randomly stutter. I blank. I'm a nervous nelly. Although I don't feel nervous, lately I've noticed how nervous I come across.
And I can't finish a sentence. I tend to just trial off.
I can't tell anecdotes properly because I'm always second guessing myself and I would forget certain events.
I don't stutter but I do all the other stuff. I blank, sometimes trail off, always second guess what I'm saying.
I like to think I have a decent vocabulary, especially when it comes to business jargon, and maybe that comes across in my written communications at work. But in regards to my verbal communication I'm a hot mess. Luckily I don't have to speak too often at work, just conference calls once in a while.
I've been out haunting the neighborhood
And everybody can see I'm no good
When I'm walking out between parked cars
With my head full of stars
I tend to be a good speaker when I mesh well with the person. However, there will be times when irme and a certain person don’t click and my will to keep the conversation falls off. I still will politely go on but once I can find a way to leave I do so .
No. I do alright writing (as long as you read whatever I wrote after I edit it a million times to make it seem like my brain isn't a tornado of random garbage). IRL, I do not much like to talk even to people I know well and I always feel like whatever I say is wrong or stupid or poorly worded (and it often is). And whenever I am talking to someone I don't know my mind goes blank even if they just ask me a really simple question.
Sometimes, but it depends on the situation. I speak better in a one-on-one conversation, and if I know the person well. In the context of groups of people, especially people I don't know well (or at all), I become very self-conscious. Sometimes, my mind just becomes empty and I can't think of anything. If I'm with a group and one or more people are dominating the conversation, I tend to falter and generally stay in the background. I don't know if this is a negative quality or not. I'm not an actor and I'm not generally interested in taking a spotlight, if that makes sense.
With me it totally depends how I'm feeling. I remember this girl started talking to me on the tram a year or so ago and I felt very embarassed. I was actually having trouble catching my breath and my throat was locking up - that's what happens when I get really nervous in public.
It's very strange because on another day if the same thing happened I would have been okay. I can usually talk to people just fine. Of course when I'm manic I will literally start talking to anyone.