'surrounded by enemies' mentality
When i go to bed i like to lie there and half-dream about myself as some calm, cold calculating, no compromise rambo/jason bourne character, dealing out justice to whoever has done me wrong.
A usual theme is that im looking at my enemy through the scope of a sniper rifle, and i have placed a cellphone in the area where he's at, so i can call him and have his attention as well as his life in my hands.
This calms me down, the thought of no compromise overpowering and domimation of my hated evil enemies.
Often i daydream about conflicts involving me against an entire group of people, and nobody supports me, even though im clearly right.This comes often to a a conclusion where everybody is gathered and i present clear and undeniable evidence that i am right and they are all wrong.
I then imagine myself having a contemptfull grin on my face as I, the outsider, relentlessly taunts them, the despicable herd animals and the social manipulators that leads them.
But the flock can of course not accept that an individual is not complying with the will of the many (borg?) so i tell them about the comically brilliant steps i have taken to prevent them from killing the one who isnt willing to assimmilate, like having the entire area covered with mines that will go of if my pulse stops.
i dunno man...who knows...ya know??