First of all, hey everyone. haven't been here in a while. I dont come here because I choose not to admit that I have some SA... but it's not too bad.
I think SA is part of my personality, so it's not really SA. I don't thrive off of other people's energys. I'm an introvert, and thats okay too I guess. I enjoy talking to people I get along with, etc. And I suppose I enjoy meeting people. I'm just not that in your face remember my face personality type, which I sometimes wish I was.
Anyway I went for my second job interview this month. it sucked. I had an interview at walmart... (im 17, so, its just a job for now). they ask you so many stupid questions like "why do you want to work for walmart?", "how could walmart improve?", "describe a time in the past where you helped a customer and felt proud?".
its like all retorical questions. there were no answers. I just made up some jumble, that would technically be considered a correct answer, just like someone running for Miss America saying they want world peace.
I feel like I'm talking but it's not really being heard. I try so hard not to mumble, but I swear my mouth must be disconfigured or something because it's hard for me to pronounce certain words or something, I don't know what it is. I have trouble projecting a smart, educated manner of speaking. I have honours in school, and I'm very smart, and I find people never get to see that because my speech isn't up to parr, and I don't know why it is.
My voice was so montone the whole time, and I feel my mouth freeze up when I'm talking. It's not so much that I'm that nervous, it's just I wanted to show personality so much, and I feel like there is no personality to show, even if I didn't have SA. That's why I feel like SA is me, so it's not really SA. I'm just a naturally quiet person with not much to say.
Of course there are people I am more open around, but we all show different personalities to different people, depending on which side of us that person brings out.
the interview just sucked and i feel like it's impossible to get a job. plus there is always that issue when i do get the job how nervous i would be at cash, scared someone might try to make convo with me. I used to work at a drive through at a fast food place, it sucked. I would get anxious and nervous every time some hot guy would order something. I felt like a loser. maybe that was just my job that made me feel like a loser, lol.
Does anyone have any advice?? my interview skills are severly impacting my life because I can't get a job. I have seriously debated drinking before a few interviews to loosen me up. that's what im doing next time. drinking makes me the life of the party.
OMG oh yeah. I went to my friends house last weekend and left my purse there. now granted he's not a good friend or anything, but I had to do that hair of the dog thing, and drink some whisky just to get the nerve to call and ask for my purse back. what the hell! lmao. im a loseeer.
im always debating whether or not to drink before a situation where i might be anxious. it sucks. thats why i love alcohol