small talks? im ok, but long talks?
Analyzing why I feel so frustrated socially (that is to say completely), I realize that I can do small talks with coworkers but after a month of it, I feel stuck because I can not start "long talks", because I can no longer ask basic things that come out in youtube videos, i just speak about work (will it be because I have no more social life?), I also have no sense of humor.
So far I never started a conversation and I already heard at least 3 times that I am the quiet of the place and every time I hear that I feel a tremendous sadness, I feel like giving up.
It seems to me that I will not last more than 2 months in a job, every time I hear that they talk about my silence, an attack of anguish and anxiety is triggered.