Today the CBT depression group started at my school, and it was just me and 3 other girls, with two therapists in training. It was kinda awkward but I think that's normal. While I don't expect to feel better with just one session, somehow I left feeling worse about myself today.
The others mentioned how they opened up to their close friends, who were very supportive and made them feel better. I didn't have anything to say because I don't have friends. They also mentioned how their past boyfriends made their depression worse, but I felt stupid because I've never had a boyfriend before, so I just stayed quiet.
I'm also the quietest one in the group, like two of the girls said they were outgoing talkers, so already I feel kinda left out. While the problems they discussed were similar to mine (feeling unmotivated, unable to concentrate on schoolwork, etc.), I realized today that maybe depression is not my primary problem.
I think SA is my main problem, and depression is a kind of "side effect" that came along with it. I actually think that if I made some good friends and had people to hang out with and do "normal things" together (i.e. going to the movies, eating at a restaurant, shopping, etc.), my depression could gradually fade away. My school doesn't offer an SA support group, and I'm not sure individual therapy is going to help me make friends, especially since I'm graduating in 2 months and will most likely be moving out of the city. I just don't know if I should continue the CBT depression group at this point, it meets every Wednesday for the next 8 weeks. Opinions? :stu
The others mentioned how they opened up to their close friends, who were very supportive and made them feel better. I didn't have anything to say because I don't have friends. They also mentioned how their past boyfriends made their depression worse, but I felt stupid because I've never had a boyfriend before, so I just stayed quiet.
I'm also the quietest one in the group, like two of the girls said they were outgoing talkers, so already I feel kinda left out. While the problems they discussed were similar to mine (feeling unmotivated, unable to concentrate on schoolwork, etc.), I realized today that maybe depression is not my primary problem.
I think SA is my main problem, and depression is a kind of "side effect" that came along with it. I actually think that if I made some good friends and had people to hang out with and do "normal things" together (i.e. going to the movies, eating at a restaurant, shopping, etc.), my depression could gradually fade away. My school doesn't offer an SA support group, and I'm not sure individual therapy is going to help me make friends, especially since I'm graduating in 2 months and will most likely be moving out of the city. I just don't know if I should continue the CBT depression group at this point, it meets every Wednesday for the next 8 weeks. Opinions? :stu