the floor feels quite hard on my ***. and if I turn on my side my hip gets it. but if I haven't ridden my bike for a long time I get a sore *** but then it kind of hardens up. I think I'm going to harden up and its getting more comfortable over time.
I feel reasonably content. but also restless. it's not always easy to get to sleep.
happy feelings have been there on and off for a while. instead of always saying I'm same as usual etc I've been saying I feel glorious. I seem to have gained access to thays guys idea - er eckhart tolle - of life situation being distinct from my actual life. even though I've been up and down in some ways I've still held onto this feeling of success and peacefulness. unprecedented optimism running in parallel to my usual pessimism. odd, sublime, glorious.
"I take what is mine. I pay the iron price."