I have to leave the house 5 days a week for work. That doesn't really bother me too much, it's pretty much a routine that I have to leave at certain time to get there when I need to. It's like just going through the motions, eat, poop, brush teeth, get dressed, leave.
But on weekends it takes me a long time. Because, it's not a set routine and I have to think about where I want to go and what time. Do I want to go somewhere for lunch or eat at home after? Go to gym? What's the weather like and what should I wear? A lot of times I'll plan to go out Saturday morning and do something, but I end up staying home instead because I got up too late or something else interested me more. And then I plan to go out Saturday evening and it doesn't happen either.
I have a hard time just leaving the house on weekends because I have to figure out what to wear which is harder for me than picking work clothes. Then if I'm going to the gym I have to pack for that and have my keycard. I also get worse anxiety about going out then too, for some reason.
In fact, the last few weeks I've found myself staying home more on weekends than going out. But that might be because I'd rather save the gas and miles on my car.
I tend to not like activities with a set schedule - like meeting someone for lunch or dinner, or a movie. I usually end up getting antsy and leaving my house too early and then have to sit and wait for them or find something else to do until it's time and my stomach starts getting upset. Probably why I don't tend to plan those sort of things much.
Underneath the cold November sky, I wait for you... As the pages of my life roll by, I wait for you... I'm so desperate just to see your face, meet me in this broken place...
Be a little brave for a little bit of time.