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I used to have distractions but those interests/hobbies are no longer stimulating and I'm having a hard time finding something new and exciting.
This is one aspect of overstimulation of the brain and mind, in that past interests no longer provide what they did. This is similar to a drug user who needs an ever greater dose to get the same effect that lower doses of the drug used to give them.
This aspect is to do with novelty, which the brain is very fond of and how the mind and brain adjusts to what we have had as being the new normal after a period of time or iterations of something.
This is observable when a child gets a new toy. After a short time, the child tires of the toy and is gets discarded, often in the pile of other previously new toys.
And also, because of the expectation that has been placed on the toy, by the parents/other adults and by the child, perhaps by seeing adverts for the toy, or some TV show/program, etc. which featured the toy.
As adults, we do this with grown up toys, like cars, houses, furniture, interior decoration, work, relationships, hobbies, sports, travel & other experiences, consumption, sex, money and more.
The key cause of this is the placing of the responsibility on some external thing (“X”) to give is what we all most seek (which is peace and happiness), but "X" can never do that, because its an impossibility. X also includes people.
Because external things cannot possibly provide us with what we want, we end up being disappointed, frustrated, angry, depressed and people can seek more or stronger versions of what they thought would give them what they wanted.
In addition, because we have all been conditioned, taught and manipulated to seek excitement in life (and that excitement = living), not getting excitement can become a problem for some people. And the more excitement a person gets, the more they will need in order to reach the same level of pleasure in the brain & the mind. Its a journey that has no good end. Excitement is stimulation of the mind, which acts much like a drug does.
My recommendation is to look to de-stimulate your mind and brain, by abstinence and discovering the peace and calm that will come from reducing the stimulation level in your mind and brain.
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I feel like I waste so much time doing nothing. When I was younger I had the same problems but i still enjoyed waking up and doing stuff.
You are not wasting any time. Its the same for everyone too. And also, time does not actually exist. It is a human invention, in an attempt to measure movement.
There is no pre-determined way that you should live your life. You just think there is because of how you have been conditioned/programmed/taught to think about life and because you see everyone else doing/acting/living the same/similar way. And also, you probably believe you have a certain amount of years before you will die and therefore, you need to use the time you have “productively” and "not waste time”.
But no-one actually has a natural pre-set way of living or that they will be alive for a particular amount of years. You don’t know what will happen in your life or when you will die. Its the same for everyone.
And so most likely, this pre-set idea about life and living is foremost in your mind, (as it is for almost everyone) with a set of pre-determined expectations, assumptions, beliefs, ideas, concepts and targets/goals/stages, about what should happen/be in your life. And all these things heavily influence the choices and decisions that you make and your perception of life too.
Its like driving. You steer the vehicle so it only ever travels on the road, that has been pre-made with signs along the way telling you do this/don't do that. You ensure that you don’t mount the sidewalk/pavement, drive the vehicle into the woods or the forests, hit people, hit houses, hit animals, etc.
But we don’t have any actual roads in our minds naturally. Its all been imposed on us and this imposition has framed life in the way we are all living.
You see how, despite there being 7.5 billion people on then planet, almost everyone is behaving/talking/doing more or less the same ways you are, every single day.
This way of living has been imposed on you (and everyone else) from a very young age and it is not natural.
We only ever have “now” or the present moment, but most people "live" in the future and the past and their minds flip between both states millions of times each day. Thus, they cannot actually experience the now, while their mind is in the future or the past.
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I would be interested in those resources though.
I will send you some via PM.