Mouth breathing in childhood has ruined my whole life
It may sound funny to you the first time you read the thread, but it's the only reason I've been depressed for years. I have a serious problem that makes me think of suicide.
When I was like 11-12, I was a decent looking kid. I had a great jaw/chin, cheekboones, straight teeth. I could breathe through my nose by default. But one day nasal polyps and deviated septum formed in my nose. After that day, I could never breathe through my nose and I didn't know why at that time. As I got older, I realized that the only reason I'm ugly was mouth breathing. This **** literally made my face deformed.
For those who don't know, chronic mouth breathing causes extremely crooked teeth, recessed jaw/chin, weak cheekbones, tired eyes, ADHD, sleep apnea etc. I have all these features now. I'm literally deformed. There's nothing I can do about it. I can't afford any surgeries. I can't go outside because my looks gives me anxiety.
When I take a picture of my profile, I don't look like human. Like I'm being dead serious. I don't look like any human being. It hurts me so much. All of these problems I had could have been solved easily If I breathed through my nose. My stupid parents' negligence ruined my entire life and they never took me to the hospital or cared about me. Seriously I don't wanna live like this.
I could've been a normal-looking person If I had breathed through my nose, but no, I was forced to mouth breathe. As a result, I lived an empty worthless life. I just wanted to get off my chest, it's all real. These thoughts never leave me. I can't sleep, eat, go out for two years because of these thoughts. I have no social life, no job, no money, no single friend. Being ugly is so bad that it takes away all the enthusiasm of a person. I hope my stupid parents will be happy when I blow my brain out.