I'm really tired because I'm jet lagged, I've been awake since 2 am and I ran 4 miles today. But I can't sleep because I'm itchy. My whole body is on fire and it's driving me nuts. I have a really weird family situation-I have to keep my head down at the dinner table because the people sitting across from me disgust me. It doesn't help that I prepare eulogies for my loved ones out of the blue random. I have my dog sleep in my room because I can't stand people but I can't handle being alone. Everyone says they don't understand why I want to stay inside, why I avoid grocery stores or why I'm so sad. There's nothing wrong; it's all internal. And the feeling of 'WTF this is absolutely bat**** crazy why why why" is mutual.