Join Date: Oct 2010
Location: Talos IV
Language: C++, Java, Python
If I am being honest, I dont think its an excuse.
Nobody gives a **** about you having an anxiety problem. When I say this I mean that the general populace will just view you as incompetent or "weird". A person I was once close with just cut contact because I was honest about my anxiety and how crippling it had become, but he just thought I was being a p**** about it. Then again, he is ex-military, although sometimes think he might be right, lol.
Ultimately, you are aware that you have an anxiety problem. You are the only one who is capable of change, and only you care enough to decide whether or not you want to change or live in the shackles of anxiety. Of course, this is a lot easier said than done.
I think if you are actively trying to change and get out of your comfort zone, you are making improvements. Its when you lose all hope and give up on ever breaking free when you lose to cowardice.
But, you're in your early 40's. You've made it this far, which is definitely something.
Care to elaborate on that further, like what its like being your age, your life experiences, jobs, relationships since your 20's?
Uh, imagine a dark alley, and you see, you see someone come up behind you. You start walking faster, you don't know who it is. You turn around, it's just you. It's you, you're the shadow