I don't get why so many people with SA have this problem. It cannot only be because of the anxiety blocking our thoughts, because even when we are not anxious we have nothing to say, or type. I have really poor memory so I can't recall and tell stories with enough details to be interesting or long enough to fill the silence for a decent amount of time. I've thought about this a lot because it affects all my interpersonal relationships, I am losing long time friends, have been dumped by a girl that loved me at first but got bored and tired of me because a lack of communication. Maybe all this years of anxiety have deteriorated my cognitive skills, because anxiety and cortisol kills braincells in the hippocampus(are of the brain associated with memory) and PFC. Though I remember being quiet as a kid too, and anxiety hadn't had time to affect me back then. I still remember telling opinions on specific things and being called knowledgeable for my age. But now I can't express myself on the fly, it's like the thought is there but I can't translate it into words. Maybe it's also because of a lack of practice talking to people? being avoidant of having conversations due to anxiety since a young age has kept me from developing communication skills, though I've always forced myself to socialise and stand the intense stress I feel. I don't consider myself to be dumb, I've always been good at problem solving, STEM and school. I am just not a good speaker I guess. But it sometimes feels like a mental disability, as if SA wasn't enough. I just don't get why so many people with SA have this, maybe it is one of the contributing factors of social anxiety and if we were good at talking we wouldn't always be so anxious, our minds would be distracted in social situations, we wouldn't be so self focused, and probably wouldn't get bad looks from people awkwarded by the silence we bring. It can't be that hard to just talk, you only have to recall something that happened to you and decently articulate it, you don't have to make a complex logical reasoning or be a hilarious comedian, just tell your previously thought out opinion on something or one of the thousands of anecdotes from your life, the thought is already in your brain it shouldn't be so damn hard, it is clearly an issue with long term memory. Sometimes I feel like an NPC with no background, story or interaction in this videogame that life is.