since age, always same outlook, manner, approach, behaviour?
i have not
maybe critical to adapt, change to blend with any number of others?
parents never put anything into me, no influence or inspiration. they 50-year-old grandparents when i born. they burnt out? Dad talked about money, making it, some day, never spend any more than affordable.. etc. which didn't change any of my outlook.
All in life is so easy. every step in life.. day! Years, decades
gains, improvements? no, only loss, all the way! dwelling on childhood, in homes better than my current one. Wanted out of parents' home at end of school. boring. a fresh chapter indeed, a different county, that's all. others just go and live, work in different counties. all i ever had left was parents.. many home changes with them. many with my GF. my choice of new home for us went sourly bad. still here alone, since 2001. my resting place, graveyard. every job, not enuƒƒ!