How can I stop feeling so worthless?
I just can't figure out what's wrong with me. I've talked with a bunch of counsellors (in person and online), constantly trying to figure out what I'm doing wrong in social interactions, why I have such a hard time connecting with coworkers, classmates, co-Meetup attendees. They haven't seen me in a real-world social setting so they wouldn't know, but they all think that I articulate myself well and don't come across as particularly awkward. Of course, I usually feel comfortable talking to counsellors because I know that they will not become my friend so I have no such expectation. But with meetups and classes, it's different right? People make friends with each other all the time. They chat, get to know each other, pay attention to what the other person is saying, grab coffee, lunch, text each other, maybe even hang out on the weekend if they really like each other. I just can't figure it out. Hardly anyone I meet seems to want to have conversations with me. In a group, people often seem to turn away from me when I try to talk to them. I don't smell, I don't have awful hygiene, I do try to smile a bit (even though it can be hard to fake happiness sometimes). I either feel like I'm repelling everyone, or that I'm simply invisible.
I know that there are often compatibility issues between me and others, like not having enough in common. But if it happens again and again, surely there must be something that I'm doing wrong. Maybe I'm too boring for others, who knows.
Not sure if I'm looking for advice, or words of support. Can anyone relate?