If I have to make eye contact, I need to only give eye contact for a few seconds and then look away for awhile, in order to talk and listen. If not and I maintain constant eye contact, I will have trouble with active listening and also convey my thoughts due to anxiety. Unless in professional situations, where I know I have to maintain more constant eye contact. In those situations, I force myself to, which oddly I do fine in those situations. Casual social interactions, I cannot do this. Especially with people I know better ironically I will be worse at maintaining eye contact. I think it's because people I know better, I am better at reading their eye and facial expression in how they think about me. Strangers or people I know less well, I don't. Thus I have less eye contact anxiety with them.
The truth is strictly what the ones in power perceives it to be.
Enjoy any good things, even the little and menial ones, as you will never know what impending distresses could descend upon you in a moment.