If I have to make eye contact, I need to only give eye contact for a few seconds and then look away for awhile, in order to talk and listen. If not and I maintain constant eye contact, I will have trouble with active listening and also convey my thoughts due to anxiety. Unless in professional situations, where I know I have to maintain more constant eye contact. In those situations, I force myself to, which oddly I do fine in those situations. Casual social interactions, I cannot do this. Especially with people I know better ironically I will be worse at maintaining eye contact. I think it's because people I know better, I am better at reading their eye and facial expression in how they think about me. Strangers or people I know less well, I don't. Thus I have less eye contact anxiety with them.
Enjoy any good things, even the little and menial ones, as you will never know what impending distresses could descend upon you in a moment.