Join Date: Mar 2018
Language: German, English
In school, yes. Elementary school was fine, I wasn't that shy, participated in class, loved to read out loud, etc. Though I always were a bit awkward around people and didn't say much.
Then, from 5th to 10th grade a lot of stuff happened and I got bullied. Not the super bad stuff, but because I was awkward around people and generally a bit more reserved, I didn't fit in that much. Was also super bad at sports, and idk why but sports was a big topic in my class. If you were bad in any other subject, no one cared, but if you were bad at sports, you lost. It started in sports class when classmates wouldn't invite me into their group and laughed at me. This resulted in me talking even less and then they didn't invite into other group projects, constantly said stuff like "Can you even talk?"/"Say something" and called me in class to say something and that got worse over the years.
I said even less in class, was constantly nervous when teachers or classmates called me, couldn't answer simple questions when being called in class because I was so nervous. Wasn't able to call my friend on the phone anymore, was constantly paranoid that people stared at me and many unnecessary anxieties started: fearing phone calls, fear of walking alone through the hallway, fear of eating or pretty much doing anything in front of people, fear of someone seeing me alone, etc.
So I guess always shy, but the bullying - and with bullying I mean the social isolation I experienced and not so much any 'physical' bullying - really brought out a lot more of my social anxiety or actually started it.