lockdown ****ed with my head. but I recovered after - to my usual state i mean. yesterday i was anxious as **** for no reason. days I feel up to visiting my friend are good. but I also need rest days. and then there are those days that would be a rest day if I didnt get so anxious, and then I need an additional rest day.
so sometimes I think I wasted this or that day but tbh I couldn't deal with doing things on that day. if I go out for a walk, that's an ok day. the weeks that I only have work on 2 days are usually bad.
everything is totally dependent on my energy and my mood. and also on external things like game nights and when I can visit friend, etc.
yesterday I wanted to buy some things, and I went for a walk but I didnt end up getting the things. it's not urgent so it doesnt bother me and covid19 things offer decent reasons to just buy stuff online I guess.
i just try to take whatever happens, if I feel like doing things, ok, if I dont feel like doing it, ok. that happened. try not to dwell on it.
I alone cannot change the world, but I can cast a stone across the waters to create many ripples. ― Mother Teresa